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[phyncke]

 I am doing a little post today. I woke up really early - 4:30 am to watch the French Open tennis match between Nadal and Federer today. Just for a thing. I have been into tennis lately so it was fun to get up and watch it. So I am up and thought I would write a little post here and send it out to the Universe. Hope you all are doing great. 

I am finding few challenges at work. My office is a mess so I am going to clean it up and my electronic files are a mess so I will clean those up too but I am bored and not challenged very much. I would like to find a new job with new things to do so I am going to concentrate on that for a bit and see what I can rustle up. The problem I am finding is that my salary is too high for the positions I am seeing. They want entry level people and I have too much experience. So there is that. I just have to hunt around. I will do some trainings and get that going too. Get more qualified and see what I can do about that. 

I am dealing with the death of a very good friend. I miss her every day. How do you deal with that kind of loss? I guess you just go on and let the feelings come. I have not had that big cry yet. I am sort of bottling up my feelings and think the cry will happen later. I really really miss her though. We texted and instant messaged on a daily basis. Silly things - nonsense really but it meant something to us. I will say it again - I miss her. It feels good to write these words. Sometimes people don't want to hear about grief - they are afraid of it. I do have a few friends who understand what I am going through - so I can talk to them. So that is ok. I think I will always miss her and that is ok. 

Summer travel coming up - just Vegas this summer  - with the gals. I have a childhood friend coming in town for a week so we will do things around here - a staycation for me. So that will be fun. Anyhoo. This got longer than I planned. 

I am good, not great but I know things will get better. Keepin it real. Thanks for reading and drop me a comment. I love comments. <3

Comments

[alexcat]

Someone once told me that grief is a price we pay for love. It is... we will always miss those we lose and that's okay. It's fitting that we do. It keeps a part of them alive within us.

[aglarien]

What Alex said. You just keep taking one day at a time. You grieve, you cry, you keep doing the daily things you need to need to do to get through life. And then one day you'll realize that there are moments of joy again, and you're finding your way through the darkness. The loss is always there, but it grows easier to bear with each passing year. Love you!

[keiliss]

What I said on LJ. And yes, it will get better.

*loves*